john mayer concert

im going to LA tonight to go see John Mayer for the 2nd time!!! <3>

i loveeee him & i cant wait !!

lots of school work this week..
exams, homework assignments, projects, finals prep.

its exhausting at times. but i'll make it through.
2 more weeks. then i'm done.



man.. i want my mama.

sometimes

sometimes it feels like a part of me dies.
this feeling is unbearable & excruciating at times.
i want it to stop. i will make it stop.

2 weeks till winter break. thank goodness.

its what i love

Too Often We Understimate
The Power Of A Touch,
A Smile, A Kind Word,
A Listening Ear,
An Honest Compliment,
Or The Smallest Act Of Caring,
All Of Which Have The Potential To Turn A Life Around.
-Leo Buscagila

@#$@#

i dont know whats wrong.

oh goshhhh

i REALLY REALLY want to go the John Mayer concert!!!! in LA !!! in DECEMBER.

i know someone wants to get the tickets for me <3. haha

anyways. halloween was funn. sucked that i was still sick.
and UCI was such a bust. but the night ended up good.

over all a good weekend.



[i hate the dentist]


VEGAS this weekend bitches<333

MM!!

was epic.

body piercing bass.
united atmosphere.
flashing lights.
constant movement.
power over the body.
constant high.
breathtaking music.

oh how i wish it never stopped..


monster massive 08<3

needless to say i had a blast!!

its like a death wish.

its ridiculous, it was a drought
now it pours like theres no tomorrow.

i fucked up. big time.
sorry does not even cut it.

gonna hide out forever.

tomorrow is the day

i'm MOVING tomorrow!!!
but holy shit. i haven't packed any of my clothesss yet... =[

and my last day of work is today... : (

next time i update this is probably going to be at my new place <3

honestly

yes something might be good, but if its not followed up. its shit.


moving in ten days.
finalllly.

one more week

i only have one more week of work. and then i'm donee. =[

its making me saddd. =/



i dont really want to leave anymoreee!!! ahh

well. its sunday night.
i have 20 art sketches to do. before tomorrow.
and i am tiredddd.


movinggg in 2 weeeeks.
i neeeed to go to ikea!!!

finally!!!

i finally got a mail from disney today.


so i GOT THE INTERNSHIP!!!! i'm so excited.

haha


i have a history paper to write. =[


that kinda killed it. but thats ok.

i'm done

I wasn't looking for this
What is this
I don't know
You know I was doing just fine
By myself
On my own
Tell me how to stop this feeling

I don't want to fall in love
Just want to have a little fun
Then you came and swept me up and now I'm done so done
Falling madly deeply I
Surprise myself enough to find
That what's become this love and now I'm done so done, I'm done

Yeah

I can't imagine right now
Standing here, without you
To think that I tried to ignore
What I felt, what I knew
I could never, stop this feeling

I don't want to fall in love
Just want to have a little fun
But then you came and swept me up and now I'm done so done
Falling madly deeply I
Surprise myself enough to find that what's become this love and now I'm done so done, I'm done

Yeah

Thank you for not letting go
When I said
Let me go
Thank you for timing, thank you for finding
Thank you for not believing me baby when I said

art sketches

art sketches can suck it. they took forever...

and i need to make up the ones i didnt do from last week. fuck.


2 papers due this week. fuck.
work. fuck.
life. fuck.


oh fuck it.

fucking rut

i need to get out of this rut.


=[


what. if..

goodness gracious

so my parents want me to quick my job. but i'm still debating..


and..
sang happy birthday 5 times yesterday
drew 10 pengiuns
1 panda
2 dogs
... haha

i need to start my homework..

ohh i can't believe it.

schoool is taking over lives including my own.

no time to do anything.


i hate stress. ugh


i'll write later. peace.

tears you cant control.

in tough situations.
i love finally having family there to help.

i love my daddy.

the end.

so glad

i am so glad it's friday tomorrow..

it's about time.

its been an emotional roller coaster this whole week.

i am looking forward to the weekend.

not enough time

i dont have the time to blog as much.
i'm tired. but i'm just trying to go through each day at a time.

my daddddy comes home tomorrow night.

your jealous. 8]




some plans are pushed back. but i'm still optimistic about the future.


i LOVE my life i LOVE my life.. & repeat.
the end.
hopefully everyone's excited for their upcoming events.

exhaustion

wow this week has been hectic!!!!

Between school, work, commuting, homework, family life.
its crazy.


i'm just glad its the weekend. finally a moment to breathe.

school

homework sucks.


procrastination is baddd. and i probably shouldnt be blogging right now. but

i dont want to face reality and realize that i have a munch of shit to do..

grrgh

Self Image

Once you lose yourself, you have two choices: find the person you used to be... or lose that person completely.

Because, Sometimes, you have to step outside of the person you've been. And remember the person you were meant to be. The Person you wanted to be. The Person You Are.

weird dream..

so i pretty much just woke up... kinda.
i didnt even sleep for that long. i went to sleep at 5. but anyways
i had the weirdest dream ever.

i was in Chicago.. with a bunch of people. and then there were alot of big buildings around.
and so it made me want to be an architect.. and i was thinking about it. so now i'm actually a little bit interested.. haha

and in the dream, the most amazing fireworks/meteor shower happened. it was weird..


hmmm

Random

Have you ever made out on your bed?
yes sir

Do you think​ the last perso​n you kisse​d is nice?​​
most of the time

Do you know anyon​e who has messe​d up your life?​​
nope. i wouldnt let anyone mess my life up. its My Life Bitch.


Do you have a best frien​d?​​
why yes i do.


Where​ was your defau​lt taken​?​​
universal studios


Who was the last perso​n on your bed besid​es yours​elf?​​
ms. guiv. homegirl slept over couple nights ago.


What side of a heart​ do you draw first​?​​
left


What is bothe​ring you right​ now?
i need to alot of errands tomorrow.

When was the last time you got a back massa​ge?​​
i would have to say couple weeks ago.


Is it worth​ cryin​g over a guy/​​girl?​​
depends on who


What'​​s your most hated​ food?​​
pineapples.


Who was the last perso​n you took a pictu​re with?​​
dont remember.


Do you sleep​ with the door open or close​d?​​
close​d.
​

Are you good at hidin​g your feeli​ngs?​​
hell yeah. but most of the times i dont have any feelings

​
Do you like to cuddl​e?​​
yess


Who'​​s car were you in last other​ than yours​?​​
i took the expedition out on sunday?


Who was the last conve​rsati​on you had on the phone​ with?​​
i just got off the phone with katharine


Are you afrai​d of rolle​r coast​ers?​​
nope.


How is life going​ for you right​ now?
life is good. i can't complaint


Is there​ any meani​ng behin​d your profi​le song?​​
ummm. the one on myspace. i think its just cause i like hollywood undead.


Do you belie​ve what comes​ aroun​d goes aroun​d?​​
yeah. Karma.


Do you trust​ peopl​e easil​y?​​
no. i've learned not to.

Do you give out secon​d chanc​es easil​y?​​
yes. when they know they fucked up. and apologized for it.


What color​ are your eyes?​​
brown
​

Do you smile​ a lot?
i'd think so.

One thing​ you'​​re looki​ng forwa​rd to?
Angel's Game on Tuesday, and my apartment so i dont have to drive to school anymore.


How do you feel about​ chang​e?​​
i like it.


Have you ever cried​ from being​ so mad?
yes. and im usually shaking too.


What is the longe​st you have gone witho​ut check​ing your Myspa​ce?​​
like couple of weeks?


Miss someo​ne?​​
yeah!!!


Has anyon​e ever told you you have prett​y eyes?​​
nope


What makes​ you laugh​?​​
cute dorky things. or just something funny.

Where​'​​s your shirt​ from?​​
i dunno. its just a simple t-shirt.
​

Have you ever made anyon​e laugh​ when they were cryin​g?​​
yep


Did you cry today​?​​
no


Are you happy​?​​
eh. but i'm not sad


Has anyon​e ever sang to you?
yes

Do you hate the last girl you were talki​ng to?
no. i love mr. katharine

How many times​ have you kisse​d the last perso​n you kisse​d?​​
i dont count.


Will you kiss that perso​n again​?​​
not sure. maybe


What are you liste​nin to?
between the trees "you cry a tear to start a river"


Have you ever regre​tted letti​ng someo​ne go?
no. there are reasons i let them go in the first place.


Who did you last see in perso​n?​​
kelsey saikami


Who are you talki​ng to right​ now?
no one.


Are you liste​ning to music​ right​ now?
yes


Do you like Chine​se food?​​
no


Did anyon​e see your last kiss?​​
dont think so

Where​ is the next place​ you will trave​l to?
maybe santa barbara?


Have you ever worn the oppos​ite sex'​​s under​wear?​​
yes


What were you doing​ at 8:00 this morni​ng?​​
in the shower. or getting ready


Do you say sexy a lot?
dont think so.


When was the last time you had a sleep​over?​​
saturday

What is somet​hing you curre​ntly want right​ now?
my apartment

Do you want to get marri​ed & have child​ren?​​
when i'm older.


What was the last thing​ you bough​t?​​
yogurtland


Are you afrai​d to fall in love?​​
i dont even know. i think its hard for me to fall in love.


Do you have empty​ bottl​es of alcoh​ol hidde​n somew​here?​​
no. why would you keep empty bottles.


Are you typic​ally a jealo​us perso​n?​​
hmm sometimes.


Name somet​hing great​ that happe​ned today​?​​
my yummy turkey/avocado sandwich for lunch today.


Do you like your life as of now?
yes

Empty Feelings

so i took my bar (industrial) out of my ear...

=[

i thought it would be a good idea. but being the idiot i am, the bar wouldnt go back in.
therefore i was forced to put in indivisual studs in... -____-
my ear feels naked. . .

anywayssss moving on to some random thoughts..

There comes a time when every life goes off course.
In this desperate moment who will you be?
Will you let down your defenses, and find solace in someone unexpected?
Will you reach out?
Will you face your greatest fear bravely?
And move forward with faith.
Or will you succumb to the darkness in your soul?

Bust It

If you could go back and change one thing about your life, would you? And if you did, would that change make your life better? Or would that change ultimately break your heart? Or break the heart of another? Or would you choose an entirely different path? Or would you change just one thing, just one moment? One moment, that you've always wanted back.




that leads to this...


do you ever wonder if we make the moments in our lives or if the moments in our lives make us?

Generation Text.

apologies should not be done over the phone.
let alone texting.



what the fuck has this world come to?




seriously...




Fuck the Bitches. & the Jerks.
The End. Thank You.

Find A Way

"Sometimes when you're young, you think nothing can hurt you.
It's like being invincible.
Your whole life is ahead of you, and you have big plans.
Big plans.
To find your perfect match.
The one that completes you.
But as you get older, you realize it's not always that easy.
It's not until the end of your life that you realize how the plans you made were simply plans.
At the end, when you're looking back instead of forward, you want to believe that you made the most of what life gave you.
You want to believe that you're leaving something good behind.
You want it all to have mattered."

Now i'm asking myself...
Did it matter? Does it matter? Will it matter?

labor day

Should i give up or should i just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere?
Or would it be a waste even if i knew my place
Should i leave it there?
Should i give up or should i just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere?

oh schoool.

so college has officially started. its been a really great experience.

i love my school. however.. the only thing i hate.. is the fucking commute..

traffic makes me really upset/mad.


its labor day weekend!!! hope everyone is having fun and being safe.

xoxo
Jenn.

school starts in one day

"express yourself dont repress yourself".


so not happy that theres only one more day of summer.

-_____-



but i'm excited for school... kinda

I Caught Fire

i fell in love again...
with the used.

they never get old. i love it.

speechless. but ok

the rules are...

there are no rules.
everything is legit.

there are no accidents or "oopsies".
whats done is done.

there are no hard feelings.
its more of a oh ok. wow. ok.

1/2/3.

there are things you dont want to happen but you have to accept. and there are things that you dont want to know. but you have to learn. but there are people you can't live without but you have to let go.

Next time.. three rounds. Ding Ding!

The Frustration leads to the Tension.


Suck it. Bitches.

pineapple express made me want to smoke.


0_0


i'm gonna go watch the devil wears prada.
peace.

...?!#$%^@#$@#)&+){}":"...

goodbye's are hard and sad. end of story.




no comment.

Wisdom

i have come to sense that...
its nearly impossible to achieve all kinds of wisdom..

wisdom comes from experience.

Experiences might include: childhood memories, heart breaks, falling in love, death, graduation, moving, college, divorce, rejection, near death situations, weddings, movies,...etc.

Through these memories our minds and thoughts are always with us.

everyone has their own experiences.
It will never be 100 % the same as another person's.
no one will ever feel the exact same emotion as you did,
whether you were hurt, loved, missed, surprised, angered, backstabbed, appreciated, ( add your own emotion)...


sure.. people say "Yeah thats exactly how i feel.... when I....[blah blah blah]"

and dont get me wrong..that is definitely true... but only to some extent.

Aside from that note.

we should always take into consideration that with every situation there are other perspectives.
Another side to the story. And chances are.. you dont agree with the other side.

But really.. at the end of the day..
please keep in mind that we are all human beings. We all have emotions.
like in kindergarden.. " treat each other nicely".

i dont know why i wrote this. but i did. so there.


<3
the game & lil' wayne "My Life"

Hello Goodbye

I like,

Where we are,

When we drive,

In your car.

I like,

Where we are,

Here.

Cause our lips,

Can touch.

And our cheeks,

Can brush.

Our lips can touch,

Here.

Where you are the one, the one,

That lies close to me.

Whispers, "Hello, I miss you quite terribly."

I fell in love, in love,

With you suddenly.

Now there's no place else,

I could be,

but, Here in your arms.

I like,

Where you sleep,

When you sleep,

Next to me.

I like,

Where you sleep,

Here.

Our lips,

Can touch.

And our cheeks,

Can brush.

Cause our lips

can touch,

Here.

Where you are the one, the one,

That lies close to me.

Whispers, "Hello, I miss you quite terribly."

I fell in love, in love,

With you suddenly.

Now there's no place else,

I could be,

but, Here in your arms.

Our lips can touch.

Our lips can touch,

Here.

You are the one, the one,

That lies close to me.

Whispers, "Hello, I miss you quite terribly."

I fell in love, in love,

With you suddenly.

Now there's no place else,

I could be,

but, Here in your...

You are the one, the one,

That lies close to me.

Whispers, "Hello, I miss you quite, miss you quite..."

I fell in love, in love,

With you suddenly.

Now theres no place else,

I could be, but, Here in your arms.

Here in your arms.

Oh, here in your... arms.

Makes Sense

A normal relationship doesn't work for everyone. Some people have the most incredibly complicated relationships and if thats what makes them happy. it's not anyone's place to tell them what to do.

yup

i've definitely lost control...of my mind.

Control

Control...

you have options with control.

you rather have it, or you dont

you can take control.

or

Lose control.

Control:
Audio Help /kənˈtroʊl/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[kuhn-trohl] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation verb, -trolled, -trol·ling, noun
–verb (used with object)
1.
to exercise restraint or direction over; dominate; command.
2.
to hold in check; curb: to control a horse; to control one's emotions.
3.
to test or verify (a scientific experiment) by a parallel experiment or other standard of comparison.
4.
to eliminate or prevent the flourishing or spread of: to control a forest fire.
5.
Obsolete. to check or regulate (transactions), originally by means of a duplicate register.

whoa

when something scary/ life threatening happens.
you immediately think about the important people in your mind.
its interesting who comes up in your mind.

universal studios was really fun.
haha pictures are on facebook.

ouchhhhh

olympic beijing 2008...


weight lifting accident.
all i have to say it... Ouch..

i didnt even see the whole video. i've only seen still pictures. but still...
brutal dislocation all the way... jeeeeez just thinking about it hurts.

say it like it is

some things you can't see.
you just feel.

like the wind.

freeze

just freeze. in time. cherish the moments present and past.





Hello, good morning, how ya been?
Yesterday left my head kicked in
I never thought I could fall like that
Never knew that I could hurt this bad





I'm learning to breathe
I'm learning to crawl
I'm finding that You and
You alone can break my fall
I'm living again, awake and alive
I'm dying to breathe in these abundant skies














current love:





"freeze" - jordin sparks


"learning to breathe"- switchfoot.

yuck

so i ended up falling asleep.. i would say around 5?

and then i woke up @ 8. and took a shower & got dressed to go to LA.
at that point i was extremely tired. so i kinda just layed on my bed and rested.

around 10ish nikki texted and then i woke up azita.
needless to say. we ended up not going to LA and instead we all stayed home and rested.

everyone was pretty exhausted from the night before and we just did not have enough energy for LA. i'm sure we'll go another time.

i ended getting some things accomplished.
like...
-renewing my license.
-went to the bank and closed an account.
-mailed the bills
-finished the application


later on i went over to IKEA with susan and looked at some potential furniture.
nothing like trying out different couches.

came home. ate dinner.
fell asleep for a little bit.
and ended up on my bed watching the pick up artist.

started not feeling well. and got really nauceous.
and i'll just leave it at that.
hope everyones doing great.

new knowledge

when things hurt so bad, it just kinda numbs itself out.
so dont bother thinking if you should get something to numb it out.
cause its probably gonna take care of it by itself.


i'm tired & exhausted.



i'm on a roll with these blogs.

pain

owee.

someone come and heal me please.

i need help. who's going to be my superman.

='(

i want to sleep but i cant.

i want to call but i cant.

i want to text but i cant.

i want to move on but i cant.
i want to leave but i cant.

i want to feel better but i cant.

i want to be ok but i cant.

i want to lie to myself but i cant.

i want to be normal but i cant.

i want to cry but i cant.

wow i want so much. so selfish..

i want to live..my life.

LA tomorrow

so i'm going to LA again tomorrrrow.
i really really really hope theres no traffic tomorrow cause when we went to last friday.. it was ridiculous. traffic was horrrible! 3 hours there and 2 hours back. -_-

maybe because it was friday. whatever.

i'm scared yet excited about the next couple of months.

well right now i'm filling out paperwork for the apartment. and getting ready to set everything up. i have so muchhhhh to do right now that its killing me.
i definitely need a day to just get all of my shit done.



ahh i'm going crazy right now.
0_0


so i've found that yoga is really calming for me, for that one hour. i feel like all my troubles or thoughts are out. and i'm just concentrating on peacefulness.

after yoga. went out to get drinks & talk sesh with susan. came home around 12.
uploaded pictures & email my mommy pictures of my apartment.
my daddy says that he's sad that i'm moving out. haha



i dont feel so good right now.
mentally, physically, emotionally.

hopefully sleeping well help. that is if i get stuff done.

quick one

so just a quick update.

i actually went to fullerton today and put down a hold for my apartment <333
i took picturess. so i shall put them on in a little bit.

gonna go to LA fitness. for some Yoga <3.


its time to calm down.

hopefully everything is going to fall back to place now.

es-ca-pe

my room @ 2:21am

songs set to replay.

same set up.

continuous breeze sweeps through my room.

closed blinds, mind races.

hope to drain it all away.

wired memories progamed on rewind.

desire to fastforward all of it. But can't.

corner of my eye, lies a night light.

a constant glow that is there when dark.

Vanishes quickly at the crack of dawn.

blurred vision, weak physic, complete shut down.

if only it was that easy.

no more escapes.

Stuck to face it all. Great.

no one

at the end of the day. not everyone's going to be happy.

so i'm done with it. i'll be the bad guy. i could care less.

excited to move. i hope it happens soon.

current obsession:

love remains the same - gavin rossdale

i never thought that I

had anymore to give

you're pushing me so far

here i am without you

drink to all that we have lost

mistakes we have made

everything will change

But, love will remain the same

legit song.

sisterhood of traveling pants 2 was pretty good. long. not great but not bad. i liked it.

i've been on the laptop for too long. my eyes hurt. good night =]

p.s.

(at the end of the day, listening will take you very far, it might just bring a new understanding point of view on things).

Jenn.

earthquake

so there was a 5.8 earthquake yesterday. and even though it wasnt exactly big. it was pretty shakey ( lovely choice of word). i was at work when the earthquake happened. i just stood there because there wasnt exactly anything for me to go to, fortunately the earthquake was over in just a matter of seconds. it got me a little bit dizzy though. my stupid cell phone couldn't recieve or send any messages. so all of my messages were like 50 mins later.

So yesterday was the Girls dinner thing, and we all went to Joe's Crab Shack. haha azita and i decided to get the bucket of food, and everyone was wearing bibs, it was adorable.
after words we biked around and then decided to watch this mexican movie at my house, which i was going in and out of sleep so i didnt really watch it.

after everyone went home, i just went upstairs, got ready for bed, and went to sleeep.

and now its morning. i woke up around 7:30?
i have work tonight so that should be fanatastic.

hope everyone's doing great.

x's , o's
Jenn.

so sorry

i haven't blogged in a while. but dont worry i'm gonna start blogging as much as possible.
well. i got back from taiwan on wednesday.
and the trip was really good. alot of family bonding and shopping.

but its good to be back <3

today..
woke up around 8:30. THANK GOD. because i've been jetlagged. and it's horrible.
actually started getting ready around 10. ended up at azita's around 11. after waitng for her to get ready. we headed to newport beach hoping for a legit tan. after about 20 mins of finding a parking spot, we ended up getting on the beach at 2:15ish? anyways the weather was soo great, and it was a very relaxed day. being the smarties we are.. we brought a mini cooler for drinks, however we forgot to bring food, so after laying out/reading magazine/listening to the ipod/doing a sudoku puzzle.. we managed to relocate ourselves to fashion island and we proceeded ourselves to california pizza kitchen for some food.
THE THAI CRUNCH salad was amazingly good. just to let you readers know.

ended up shopping around.
bought a COLORED dress, last time i bought something colored... it was like 2001. haha
anyways. after fashion island, we went back to the house for some down time.
i took a nap till 8, and we went over to wendy's house to hang out.

cookiess/garlic bread/home alone/spirit talk/jacuzzi/annoying neighbor.

it was such a great relaxed dayy. and i'm very excited about tomorrow nightttt <3
John Mayer Concert. thanks to kevinnn =]

i will report back tomorrow.


infinite x's & o's
Jenn.

Free

damni never thought you would do this to mei thought you were so innocenti thought i was the only oneand you wait all the way til now to tell me?man i feel like i'm in some kind of prisonand i wanna be freemmmi can still remember you tellin me that i was the only oneand nobody had ever touched yousince the last time i calledyou and me were pretty cool, so i moved onand you made me, trust you, againno i take that back, cause i never really trusted youi just did what i had to do, cause i loved you (and)remember whispers in my ear, tellin' me to have no fearcause nobody else lives herebut it was all a lie (lie) you know the time (time)(june)ever since you told me, i won't tell you how it's beendon't talk to nobody, not even my friendsi can't sleep, and i don't even cleani ain't had a good meal, this is how you make me feel, when your not hereit's like you locked me up and threw away the keyand everywhere i turn it's like four walls are surrounding meand they movin' in slowly, i'm so lonelyfeels like i'm in some kind of prisonand i wanna be free (free) so come back to menow i know this might sound hard to believecause i'm famous all up on MTVbut you don't even know the half, no i don't barely laughall the girls surround me, but i don't even know the last time i got some assand it ain't cause i can't get it, it's just cause i don't want iteverytime i think about sexall i think about is you moanin' and some manfuckin' my name, tatted between your legs?image burned in my headand it's killin' me baby, it's drivin' me crazyever since you told me, i won't tell you how it's been, nodon't talk to nobody, not even my friendsi can't sleep, and i don't even cleani ain't had a good meal, this is how you make me feel, when your not hereit's like you locked me up and threw away the keyand everywhere i turn its like four walls are surrounding meand they movin' in slowly, i'm so lonelyfeels like im in some kind of prisonand i wanna be free (free) so come back to meyou got me drinkin, ohhyou got me smokin, ohhyou got me chokin, ohhdo you hear me cryin'?baby do you hear me dien'?oh you got me drinkin' (drinkin', drinkin', drinkin')you got me smokin' (smokin', smokin', smokin')you got me chokin' (chokin', chokin', chokin')do you see me cryin'?baby do you see me dyin'?and i wanna be free (free) so come back to meever since you told me, i won't tell you how it's been, nodon't talk to nobody, not even my friendsi can't sleep, and i don't even cleani ain't had a good meal, this is how you make me feel, when your not hereit's like you locked me up and threw away the keyand everywhere i turn its like four walls are surrounding meand movin' in slowly, i'm so lonelyfeels like im in some kind of prisonand i wanna be free (free) so come back to medrinkin', drinkin', drinkin'smokin', smokin', smokin'chokin', chokin', chokin'do you hear me cryin'?baby do u hear me dien'?oh i'm locked up, they won't let me outgot me locked up, you won't let me outever since you told me, i won't tell you how it's been, nodon't talk to nobody, not even my friendsi can't sleep, and i don't even cleani ain't had a good meal, this is how you make me feel, when your not hereit's like you locked me up and threw away the keyand everywhere i turn its like four walls are surrounding meand they movin' in slowly, i'm so lonelyfeels like im in some kind of prisonand i wanna be free (free) so come back to me

Here in Taiwan

so far...

haircut.
food.
shopping.
new ID.
family.
relatives.
bonding.

i loveeee it.

Prom 08

Prom was so much funn!!!!!!!!!

yay.

P P P Prom

yay for finally having my outfit set.

say it sista!

there comes a point in your life where you realize who matters, who never did, who won't anymore, and who always will. So don't worry about people from your past, there's a reason why they didnt make it to the future.



Love is the Movement. Period.

LOVE; its a short word/easy to spell/difficult to define/impossible to live without.

GREAT birthday!!

thank you so much everyone that made my 18th birthday possible!!!!

i had the bestest birthday ever!!!!
=]
words can't describe how lucky i am to have friends that i do. <3

Silly

actually the games he play, we all know
nothing's different
close eyes. pretend to avoid the obvious

actually we all know other's game
nothing's changed.

the game; the moves, the talks
we know how it ends

love happens, theres no guanrantee.

silly
we're all the same.
getting hurt again and again by love
believing that this him is different
but you wind up getting hurt again
silly
we're all the same.
gets hurt, and doesnt give him
thinking giving will get results
results is stupidy, silly

Senior Trip

so officially six flags is bomb.


senior trip was really fun.
went on...
-revolution
-viper (7 epic loops)
-goliath
-bucaneer
-superman
-ninja



intenseeee.

3 more days until my 18th birthday!!! i'm so excited!!!! its not even funny.
i'll finish my wish list soon. hopefully.
haha
its pouring rain outside right now.
and it was hailing.

anyways. just thought i was leave a quick blog before i go to work.

love love.

old poem

this is an old poem that i wrote for english class like 2 years ago.

Going Back

At times, I relive moments we had,

Like winter, both bitter and sweet.

Thou hast her causes my heart be sad,

My heart beats as fast as a summer’s fleet.

For thou robbed my soul tonight,

The pain settles like a rainy day,

To hope best for thou, I do not fight,

With tears of sadness, I will not pay.

In return my mind shall settle,

To depart what we had since the start.

Though I speak this as an essential.

My affection for you does not depart.

For the truth of emotions proves them all.

Never allow your heart to forever fall.

Less than a week

in less than a week. i'm going to be mother fuckin' 18!!!!!!!


fuck yes. bitches.

i should probably be studying but i'm not.
i'm so over school & stuff.






most disappointing thing this weekend was finding out i can't get the standard industrial because i have stupid midget ears. rawr! =[

i need sleep

byeee
loveJenn

some thoughts

my thoughts go out to the ones that died in the Earthquake in China and their families.


over 12,000 people have died...


http://www.cnn.com/2008/WORLD/asiapcf/05/13/china.quake/index.html
rest in peace.

Different

the response is so out of the ordinary.

impressive.

mature.

embarassment. is an understatement.

It's going to be interesting future.

12 more days until my birthday!!!!!

Wish List

for my 18th birthday.

1. Perfect Health For Everyone
2. Unconditional Love
3. Unstopable Happyness
4. Industrial Bar
5. Piercings
6. Urban Outfitters Stuff?
7. Something Handmade
8. Something From VC
9. Another JOB
10. Money For Apartment
11. New Cell Phone
12. Sony Stereo System

.......to be continued.

growing old.

Young @ Heart.
heart warming movie.
seniors singing rock&roll songs.
i don't like how life ends. sometimes so unexpected.. =[

http://youtube.com/watch?v=2u6k-99qcCE



watch it^^^
"fix it"- Fred. so sad. =/



happier one.

http://youtube.com/watch?v=omIrLgQO9O0

loveee it. P.I.M.P ^^^



Jenn.

IMPORTANT

"if we dont conquer the war, the war is going to conquear us."


legit weekend.
happy.
love.

Happy MaMa's Day


btw
IRON MAN-

is the shit.



<3 love Jenn.

new

"in the ayre"


Oh hot damn
this is my jam
keep the party until the AM
y'all dont understand
make me throw my hands...

in the ayre-ay-ayre, ayre-ay-ayre

doesnt matter.

it's almost my 18th birthday and looking back at the past as really hit me. even though a big majority of me have grown into someone who's independent over these last few years. recently, i've never felt more dependent. telling myself its ok to depend on others doesn't even cut it. i dont like the feeling. it scares me more than anything, knowing that if what i'm dependent on is gone one day, or something happens and its never going to be the same. what am i going to do? this attachment has grown on me, in ways i never thought it could.








anyways on the happier side. 20 more days until my birthday <3!!


and i'm pretty excited.








the future is coming, and its coming full throttle.








-graduation


-taiwan


-college.








haha well i'm gonna go look for apartments online.





"mommy status!"
xoxo Jenn.

How do you not love this..

calm down

so family stuff has pretty much died down.
everyone's going back home.
yayy i love family time. but i'm glad its done with.



its pretty much one more month until my birthday. and i'm pretty stoked.
HAPPY BIrthdAY mark G. <3


yay i loveeee birthdays.
and mine is just around the corner.



current love:
"take you down" - chris brown.

be be your love by rachael yamagata

If I could take you awayPretend I was queenWhat would you sayWould you think I'm unreal'Cause everybody's got their way I should feelEverybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your loveBut I want, want, want to be your loveWant to be your love, for realEverybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your loveBut I want, want, want to be your loveWant to be your love for realWant to be your everythingEverything...Everything's falling, and I am included in thatOh, how I try to be just okayYeah, but all I ever really wantedWas a little piece of youAnd everybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your loveBut I want, want, want to be your loveWant to be your love, for realEverybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your loveBut I want, want, want to be your loveWant to be your love for realEverything will be alrightIf you just stay the nightPlease, sir, don't you walk away, don't you walk away, don't you walk awayPlease, sir, don't you walk away, don't you walk away, don't you walk awayAnd everybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your loveBut I want, want, want to be your loveWant to be your love, for realEverybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your loveBut I want, want, want to be your loveWant to be your love for realAnd everybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your loveBut I want, want, want to be your loveWant to be your love, for realEverybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your loveBut I want, want, want to be your loveWant to be your love for realI want to be your love, love, love.

take control.

4/20!!!!!

Blaze mother fuckerrrr!!!!!

>_< (fuckin' high son.)

jk.

murdaa. on yo face.

stress relieve

a huge stress has just been lifted off my shoulders. thank gooodness.

work today.
party. yay
chill.

wow

amazing how a year past by so quickly.
can't wait till this summer

i want to MOVE OUT!!!! >_<



rawrrrrrrrr.


xoxo
Jenn.

its been a good 2 weeks

yes i am alive.

i've just haven't felt like blogging.

rawr.

work.school.work.sleep.eat.work.sleep.
that's how its pretty much been.


xoxo
jenn

exclusive

photo class. motion picture.

i'm half way through making up work from last week.


Talent show tomorrow. yayyyy

Survey

45 of the most random things you probably never needed to know about someone
whats your name spelt backwards?:	ynnej
What did you do last night?:	last night. i worked, came home, worked on my essay and went to sleep
The last thing you downloaded onto your computer?:	some songs onto my ipod. i think "the way that i love you" by ashanti
Have you ever licked a 9 volt battery?:	no i have not
Last time you swam in a pool?:	havent gone swimming in a while.
What are you wearing?:	a white tank with a green thingy on the outside & jeans
How many cars have you owned?:	one
Type of music you dislike most?:	emo screamo
Are you registered to vote?:	not a citizen =/
Do you have cable?:	yes
What kind of computer do you use?:	sony vaio
Ever made a prank phone call?:	nope
You like anyone right now?:	yess i do
Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?:	totally!
Furthest place you ever traveled?:	hong kong?
What's your favorite comic strip?:	dont have a favorite
Do u know all the words to the national anthem?:	nope
Shower, morning or night?:	morning
Best movie you've seen in the past month?:	charley bartlett
Favorite pizza toppings?:	tomatoes
Chips or popcorn?:	chips
What cell phone provider do you have?:	verizon wireless
Have you ever smoked peanut shells?:	no i have not
Have you ever been in a beauty pageant?:	nope
Orange Juice or apple?:	OJ please
Who were the last people you sat at lunch with?:	umm wow i haven't stay at school for lunch yet
favorite chocolate bar?:	snickers
Who is your longest friend and how long?:	azita.. 8 years
Last time you ate a homegrown tomato?:	never
Have you ever won a trophy?:	i think so
Favorite arcade game?:	DDR
Ever ordered from an infomercial?:	heck yes. GT express cooker
Sprite or 7-UP?:	sprite
Have you ever had to wear a uniform to school/work?:	yes i have. when i went to private school
Last thing you bought at Walgreens?:	i think a monster?
Ever thrown up in public?:	really late at night. when no one was really around
Would you prefer being a millionaire or finding true love?:	finding true love
Do you believe in love at first sight?:	no
SPONGEBOB OR JIMMY NEUTRON?:	spongebob
Did you have long hair as a young kid?:	umm i think so
What message is on your voicemail machine?:	i dont have a voicemail
Where would you like to go right now?:	Venice or Taiwan
Whats the name of your pet?:	dont have a pet.
What kind of back pack do you have, and what's in it?:	i dont have a back pack.
What do you think about most?:	everything.
Take this survey | Find more surveys Bzoink - The Original Survey Site

BEAT THE CLOCK

i'm gonna beat the clock to 12:oo so i'm still blogged in as march 2nd. yay

haha i just finished my 9 stories essay. fuck yea.

i'm pretty excited =] yay


now i just need to read... =[

wow being sick isn't fun

Seriously being sick is HORRRIBLE!!!!
i finally went to the doctors on thursday. (came home early from school)
and spend a good 60 dollars on seeing the actual doctor and prescription.

grrgh =[

but yeah came home and ended up having a 104 fever. it was ridiculous.
my whole body was burning up =[

the good thing is that i'm all better now!!!! kinda. like 90% there. haha
i have so much school work to make up... =/ this sucks.

lastly. my parents are home. haha the end


xoxo
Jenn



eat your daily apples. being sick fucking sucks.

blurry vision while driving is a bad idea

my head hurts.
not the great day ever.
annie play was cute.
homework sucks.

fuck.


thank god for advil and cough drops. & water.

chapter one

it's about 11PM sunday night.

i just realize i have a marine quiz/test tomorrow.
and i should probably study.

my throat hurts. and it's getting worst. =[

i am back in love with Lifehouse.
=]

All the stars are out tonight it feels as though I might Make some sense out of this madness will it turn out right Who's to say where the wind will blow Time will tell us if we're out of answers when it stops Climb back down to the beginning Take it from the top Who's to say where the wind will blow What happens when all your dreams are lying on the ground Do you pick up the pieces all around And if the world should fall apart hold on to what you know Take your chances turn around and go All the leaves are turning and the sky fades to gray Strange our life coincides with the seasons of today Who's to say where the wind will blow What happens when everything is lying on the ground Do you pick up the pieces all around And if the world should fall apart hold on to what you know Take your chances turn around and go Carry on you say Bring the best of today All I see is struggling on the way Maybe when the sun crashes through the gray I can find the strength to make it through the day Through the day What happens when all your dreams are lying on the ground Do you pick up the pieces all around And if the world should fall apart hold on to what you know Take your chances turn around and go Take your chances turn around and go


i'm gonna go study.
xoxo Jenn.


yuckkkk. we have school tomorrow =[

whatever it takes

so i haven't blogged in a while.
my throat hurts.

it's been pretty hectic lately.

todayyy.
woke up around 9:45, and realized that i was going to be late for work.
got to work at 10:04. and worked till 6. (had one hour break).
got a cute shirt. and went to Costa Mesa to get eyebrows done. but right when we walk in. they said they were fucking closed. fuck that. so we went to the tattoo parlor hoping to get kathy's belly button pierced. but she didn't have a card ID. so we retrieved home to get ready.
then we went to downtown disney. hahaha it was non-stop laughing fest for me. =]
thanks to kevin.


Yesterday:
PAY DAY!!!! =]
and i saw Charlie Bartless. it was a good movie and i liked it alot.
went to the Lab. then sean's house to eat food. then the jacuzzi.
then my house.

i don't remember Thursday. but i do know that i slept from 10PM. to 7:45AM the next morning.
sick-asssss. <3 i was so tired. && zoned out.


xoxo Jenn


one week till the parental units come home.
goood god.

The Struggle

i can survive on a 5 hour sleep. but last night ... barely 4 hours of sleep. spend the night with ernie. it was cute yet tiring. that boy wakes up wayyyy tooo early. nothing like watching happy feet. 5 in the morning.
anyways. same schedule again tonight. work till 10. home. shower. head over to eric's. and baby sit. haha hopefully i'll get some sleep tonight.

i'm not liking this rainy weather. =[




i wanna go snowboarding. the end.

xoxo Jenn
wishing i was next to a fireplace/heater or something..

dont get it twsited

Current Obsession:
Mickey Rocks <3 cafe mocha @ Starbucks.


It's a huge headache, having to keep everything on a good balance, but i'm working on it. hopefully this week will get better and everything will work its way out.


i don't mind leaving here for a while at all. i need a break.








won't be home tonight!! work, then taking care of ernie , bitchesss.

xoxo Jenn. may your life be far less complicated than mine.