school starts in one day

"express yourself dont repress yourself".


so not happy that theres only one more day of summer.

-_____-



but i'm excited for school... kinda

I Caught Fire

i fell in love again...
with the used.

they never get old. i love it.

speechless. but ok

the rules are...

there are no rules.
everything is legit.

there are no accidents or "oopsies".
whats done is done.

there are no hard feelings.
its more of a oh ok. wow. ok.

1/2/3.

there are things you dont want to happen but you have to accept. and there are things that you dont want to know. but you have to learn. but there are people you can't live without but you have to let go.

Next time.. three rounds. Ding Ding!

The Frustration leads to the Tension.


Suck it. Bitches.

pineapple express made me want to smoke.


0_0


i'm gonna go watch the devil wears prada.
peace.

...?!#$%^@#$@#)&+){}":"...

goodbye's are hard and sad. end of story.




no comment.

Wisdom

i have come to sense that...
its nearly impossible to achieve all kinds of wisdom..

wisdom comes from experience.

Experiences might include: childhood memories, heart breaks, falling in love, death, graduation, moving, college, divorce, rejection, near death situations, weddings, movies,...etc.

Through these memories our minds and thoughts are always with us.

everyone has their own experiences.
It will never be 100 % the same as another person's.
no one will ever feel the exact same emotion as you did,
whether you were hurt, loved, missed, surprised, angered, backstabbed, appreciated, ( add your own emotion)...


sure.. people say "Yeah thats exactly how i feel.... when I....[blah blah blah]"

and dont get me wrong..that is definitely true... but only to some extent.

Aside from that note.

we should always take into consideration that with every situation there are other perspectives.
Another side to the story. And chances are.. you dont agree with the other side.

But really.. at the end of the day..
please keep in mind that we are all human beings. We all have emotions.
like in kindergarden.. " treat each other nicely".

i dont know why i wrote this. but i did. so there.


<3
the game & lil' wayne "My Life"

Hello Goodbye

I like,

Where we are,

When we drive,

In your car.

I like,

Where we are,

Here.

Cause our lips,

Can touch.

And our cheeks,

Can brush.

Our lips can touch,

Here.

Where you are the one, the one,

That lies close to me.

Whispers, "Hello, I miss you quite terribly."

I fell in love, in love,

With you suddenly.

Now there's no place else,

I could be,

but, Here in your arms.

I like,

Where you sleep,

When you sleep,

Next to me.

I like,

Where you sleep,

Here.

Our lips,

Can touch.

And our cheeks,

Can brush.

Cause our lips

can touch,

Here.

Where you are the one, the one,

That lies close to me.

Whispers, "Hello, I miss you quite terribly."

I fell in love, in love,

With you suddenly.

Now there's no place else,

I could be,

but, Here in your arms.

Our lips can touch.

Our lips can touch,

Here.

You are the one, the one,

That lies close to me.

Whispers, "Hello, I miss you quite terribly."

I fell in love, in love,

With you suddenly.

Now there's no place else,

I could be,

but, Here in your...

You are the one, the one,

That lies close to me.

Whispers, "Hello, I miss you quite, miss you quite..."

I fell in love, in love,

With you suddenly.

Now theres no place else,

I could be, but, Here in your arms.

Here in your arms.

Oh, here in your... arms.

Makes Sense

A normal relationship doesn't work for everyone. Some people have the most incredibly complicated relationships and if thats what makes them happy. it's not anyone's place to tell them what to do.

yup

i've definitely lost control...of my mind.

Control

Control...

you have options with control.

you rather have it, or you dont

you can take control.

or

Lose control.

Control:
Audio Help /kənˈtroʊl/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[kuhn-trohl] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation verb, -trolled, -trol·ling, noun
–verb (used with object)
1.
to exercise restraint or direction over; dominate; command.
2.
to hold in check; curb: to control a horse; to control one's emotions.
3.
to test or verify (a scientific experiment) by a parallel experiment or other standard of comparison.
4.
to eliminate or prevent the flourishing or spread of: to control a forest fire.
5.
Obsolete. to check or regulate (transactions), originally by means of a duplicate register.

whoa

when something scary/ life threatening happens.
you immediately think about the important people in your mind.
its interesting who comes up in your mind.

universal studios was really fun.
haha pictures are on facebook.

ouchhhhh

olympic beijing 2008...


weight lifting accident.
all i have to say it... Ouch..

i didnt even see the whole video. i've only seen still pictures. but still...
brutal dislocation all the way... jeeeeez just thinking about it hurts.

say it like it is

some things you can't see.
you just feel.

like the wind.

freeze

just freeze. in time. cherish the moments present and past.





Hello, good morning, how ya been?
Yesterday left my head kicked in
I never thought I could fall like that
Never knew that I could hurt this bad





I'm learning to breathe
I'm learning to crawl
I'm finding that You and
You alone can break my fall
I'm living again, awake and alive
I'm dying to breathe in these abundant skies














current love:





"freeze" - jordin sparks


"learning to breathe"- switchfoot.

yuck

so i ended up falling asleep.. i would say around 5?

and then i woke up @ 8. and took a shower & got dressed to go to LA.
at that point i was extremely tired. so i kinda just layed on my bed and rested.

around 10ish nikki texted and then i woke up azita.
needless to say. we ended up not going to LA and instead we all stayed home and rested.

everyone was pretty exhausted from the night before and we just did not have enough energy for LA. i'm sure we'll go another time.

i ended getting some things accomplished.
like...
-renewing my license.
-went to the bank and closed an account.
-mailed the bills
-finished the application


later on i went over to IKEA with susan and looked at some potential furniture.
nothing like trying out different couches.

came home. ate dinner.
fell asleep for a little bit.
and ended up on my bed watching the pick up artist.

started not feeling well. and got really nauceous.
and i'll just leave it at that.
hope everyones doing great.

new knowledge

when things hurt so bad, it just kinda numbs itself out.
so dont bother thinking if you should get something to numb it out.
cause its probably gonna take care of it by itself.


i'm tired & exhausted.



i'm on a roll with these blogs.

pain

owee.

someone come and heal me please.

i need help. who's going to be my superman.

='(

i want to sleep but i cant.

i want to call but i cant.

i want to text but i cant.

i want to move on but i cant.
i want to leave but i cant.

i want to feel better but i cant.

i want to be ok but i cant.

i want to lie to myself but i cant.

i want to be normal but i cant.

i want to cry but i cant.

wow i want so much. so selfish..

i want to live..my life.

LA tomorrow

so i'm going to LA again tomorrrrow.
i really really really hope theres no traffic tomorrow cause when we went to last friday.. it was ridiculous. traffic was horrrible! 3 hours there and 2 hours back. -_-

maybe because it was friday. whatever.

i'm scared yet excited about the next couple of months.

well right now i'm filling out paperwork for the apartment. and getting ready to set everything up. i have so muchhhhh to do right now that its killing me.
i definitely need a day to just get all of my shit done.



ahh i'm going crazy right now.
0_0


so i've found that yoga is really calming for me, for that one hour. i feel like all my troubles or thoughts are out. and i'm just concentrating on peacefulness.

after yoga. went out to get drinks & talk sesh with susan. came home around 12.
uploaded pictures & email my mommy pictures of my apartment.
my daddy says that he's sad that i'm moving out. haha



i dont feel so good right now.
mentally, physically, emotionally.

hopefully sleeping well help. that is if i get stuff done.

quick one

so just a quick update.

i actually went to fullerton today and put down a hold for my apartment <333
i took picturess. so i shall put them on in a little bit.

gonna go to LA fitness. for some Yoga <3.


its time to calm down.

hopefully everything is going to fall back to place now.

es-ca-pe

my room @ 2:21am

songs set to replay.

same set up.

continuous breeze sweeps through my room.

closed blinds, mind races.

hope to drain it all away.

wired memories progamed on rewind.

desire to fastforward all of it. But can't.

corner of my eye, lies a night light.

a constant glow that is there when dark.

Vanishes quickly at the crack of dawn.

blurred vision, weak physic, complete shut down.

if only it was that easy.

no more escapes.

Stuck to face it all. Great.

no one

at the end of the day. not everyone's going to be happy.

so i'm done with it. i'll be the bad guy. i could care less.

excited to move. i hope it happens soon.

current obsession:

love remains the same - gavin rossdale

i never thought that I

had anymore to give

you're pushing me so far

here i am without you

drink to all that we have lost

mistakes we have made

everything will change

But, love will remain the same

legit song.

sisterhood of traveling pants 2 was pretty good. long. not great but not bad. i liked it.

i've been on the laptop for too long. my eyes hurt. good night =]

p.s.

(at the end of the day, listening will take you very far, it might just bring a new understanding point of view on things).

Jenn.