Tuesday, September 30, 2008

i'm done





I wasn't looking for this
What is this
I don't know
You know I was doing just fine
By myself
On my own
Tell me how to stop this feeling

I don't want to fall in love
Just want to have a little fun
Then you came and swept me up and now I'm done so done
Falling madly deeply I
Surprise myself enough to find
That what's become this love and now I'm done so done, I'm done

Yeah

I can't imagine right now
Standing here, without you
To think that I tried to ignore
What I felt, what I knew
I could never, stop this feeling

I don't want to fall in love
Just want to have a little fun
But then you came and swept me up and now I'm done so done
Falling madly deeply I
Surprise myself enough to find that what's become this love and now I'm done so done, I'm done

Yeah

Thank you for not letting go
When I said
Let me go
Thank you for timing, thank you for finding
Thank you for not believing me baby when I said

Monday, September 29, 2008

art sketches

art sketches can suck it. they took forever...

and i need to make up the ones i didnt do from last week. fuck.


2 papers due this week. fuck.
work. fuck.
life. fuck.


oh fuck it.

Sunday, September 28, 2008

fucking rut

i need to get out of this rut.


=[


what. if..

goodness gracious

so my parents want me to quick my job. but i'm still debating..


and..
sang happy birthday 5 times yesterday
drew 10 pengiuns
1 panda
2 dogs
... haha

i need to start my homework..

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

ohh i can't believe it.

schoool is taking over lives including my own.

no time to do anything.


i hate stress. ugh


i'll write later. peace.

Saturday, September 20, 2008

tears you cant control.

in tough situations.
i love finally having family there to help.

i love my daddy.

the end.

Thursday, September 18, 2008

so glad

i am so glad it's friday tomorrow..

it's about time.

its been an emotional roller coaster this whole week.

i am looking forward to the weekend.

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

not enough time

i dont have the time to blog as much.
i'm tired. but i'm just trying to go through each day at a time.

my daddddy comes home tomorrow night.

your jealous. 8]




some plans are pushed back. but i'm still optimistic about the future.


i LOVE my life i LOVE my life.. & repeat.
the end.
hopefully everyone's excited for their upcoming events.

Friday, September 12, 2008

exhaustion

wow this week has been hectic!!!!

Between school, work, commuting, homework, family life.
its crazy.


i'm just glad its the weekend. finally a moment to breathe.

Monday, September 8, 2008

school

homework sucks.


procrastination is baddd. and i probably shouldnt be blogging right now. but

i dont want to face reality and realize that i have a munch of shit to do..

grrgh

Sunday, September 7, 2008

Self Image

Once you lose yourself, you have two choices: find the person you used to be... or lose that person completely.

Because, Sometimes, you have to step outside of the person you've been. And remember the person you were meant to be. The Person you wanted to be. The Person You Are.

weird dream..

so i pretty much just woke up... kinda.
i didnt even sleep for that long. i went to sleep at 5. but anyways
i had the weirdest dream ever.

i was in Chicago.. with a bunch of people. and then there were alot of big buildings around.
and so it made me want to be an architect.. and i was thinking about it. so now i'm actually a little bit interested.. haha

and in the dream, the most amazing fireworks/meteor shower happened. it was weird..


hmmm

Thursday, September 4, 2008

Random

Have you ever made out on your bed?
yes sir

Do you think​ the last perso​n you kisse​d is nice?​​
most of the time

Do you know anyon​e who has messe​d up your life?​​
nope. i wouldnt let anyone mess my life up. its My Life Bitch.


Do you have a best frien​d?​​
why yes i do.


Where​ was your defau​lt taken​?​​
universal studios


Who was the last perso​n on your bed besid​es yours​elf?​​
ms. guiv. homegirl slept over couple nights ago.


What side of a heart​ do you draw first​?​​
left


What is bothe​ring you right​ now?
i need to alot of errands tomorrow.

When was the last time you got a back massa​ge?​​
i would have to say couple weeks ago.


Is it worth​ cryin​g over a guy/​​girl?​​
depends on who


What'​​s your most hated​ food?​​
pineapples.


Who was the last perso​n you took a pictu​re with?​​
dont remember.


Do you sleep​ with the door open or close​d?​​
close​d.


Are you good at hidin​g your feeli​ngs?​​
hell yeah. but most of the times i dont have any feelings


Do you like to cuddl​e?​​
yess


Who'​​s car were you in last other​ than yours​?​​
i took the expedition out on sunday?


Who was the last conve​rsati​on you had on the phone​ with?​​
i just got off the phone with katharine


Are you afrai​d of rolle​r coast​ers?​​
nope.


How is life going​ for you right​ now?
life is good. i can't complaint


Is there​ any meani​ng behin​d your profi​le song?​​
ummm. the one on myspace. i think its just cause i like hollywood undead.


Do you belie​ve what comes​ aroun​d goes aroun​d?​​
yeah. Karma.


Do you trust​ peopl​e easil​y?​​
no. i've learned not to.

Do you give out secon​d chanc​es easil​y?​​
yes. when they know they fucked up. and apologized for it.


What color​ are your eyes?​​
brown


Do you smile​ a lot?
i'd think so.

One thing​ you'​​re looki​ng forwa​rd to?
Angel's Game on Tuesday, and my apartment so i dont have to drive to school anymore.


How do you feel about​ chang​e?​​
i like it.


Have you ever cried​ from being​ so mad?
yes. and im usually shaking too.


What is the longe​st you have gone witho​ut check​ing your Myspa​ce?​​
like couple of weeks?


Miss someo​ne?​​
yeah!!!


Has anyon​e ever told you you have prett​y eyes?​​
nope


What makes​ you laugh​?​​
cute dorky things. or just something funny.

Where​'​​s your shirt​ from?​​
i dunno. its just a simple t-shirt.


Have you ever made anyon​e laugh​ when they were cryin​g?​​
yep


Did you cry today​?​​
no


Are you happy​?​​
eh. but i'm not sad


Has anyon​e ever sang to you?
yes

Do you hate the last girl you were talki​ng to?
no. i love mr. katharine

How many times​ have you kisse​d the last perso​n you kisse​d?​​
i dont count.


Will you kiss that perso​n again​?​​
not sure. maybe


What are you liste​nin to?
between the trees "you cry a tear to start a river"


Have you ever regre​tted letti​ng someo​ne go?
no. there are reasons i let them go in the first place.


Who did you last see in perso​n?​​
kelsey saikami


Who are you talki​ng to right​ now?
no one.


Are you liste​ning to music​ right​ now?
yes


Do you like Chine​se food?​​
no


Did anyon​e see your last kiss?​​
dont think so

Where​ is the next place​ you will trave​l to?
maybe santa barbara?


Have you ever worn the oppos​ite sex'​​s under​wear?​​
yes


What were you doing​ at 8:00 this morni​ng?​​
in the shower. or getting ready


Do you say sexy a lot?
dont think so.


When was the last time you had a sleep​over?​​
saturday

What is somet​hing you curre​ntly want right​ now?
my apartment

Do you want to get marri​ed & have child​ren?​​
when i'm older.


What was the last thing​ you bough​t?​​
yogurtland


Are you afrai​d to fall in love?​​
i dont even know. i think its hard for me to fall in love.


Do you have empty​ bottl​es of alcoh​ol hidde​n somew​here?​​
no. why would you keep empty bottles.


Are you typic​ally a jealo​us perso​n?​​
hmm sometimes.


Name somet​hing great​ that happe​ned today​?​​
my yummy turkey/avocado sandwich for lunch today.


Do you like your life as of now?
yes

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

Empty Feelings

so i took my bar (industrial) out of my ear...

=[

i thought it would be a good idea. but being the idiot i am, the bar wouldnt go back in.
therefore i was forced to put in indivisual studs in... -____-
my ear feels naked. . .

anywayssss moving on to some random thoughts..

There comes a time when every life goes off course.
In this desperate moment who will you be?
Will you let down your defenses, and find solace in someone unexpected?
Will you reach out?
Will you face your greatest fear bravely?
And move forward with faith.
Or will you succumb to the darkness in your soul?

Tuesday, September 2, 2008

Bust It

If you could go back and change one thing about your life, would you? And if you did, would that change make your life better? Or would that change ultimately break your heart? Or break the heart of another? Or would you choose an entirely different path? Or would you change just one thing, just one moment? One moment, that you've always wanted back.




that leads to this...


do you ever wonder if we make the moments in our lives or if the moments in our lives make us?

Monday, September 1, 2008

Generation Text.

apologies should not be done over the phone.
let alone texting.



what the fuck has this world come to?




seriously...




Fuck the Bitches. & the Jerks.
The End. Thank You.

Find A Way

"Sometimes when you're young, you think nothing can hurt you.
It's like being invincible.
Your whole life is ahead of you, and you have big plans.
Big plans.
To find your perfect match.
The one that completes you.
But as you get older, you realize it's not always that easy.
It's not until the end of your life that you realize how the plans you made were simply plans.
At the end, when you're looking back instead of forward, you want to believe that you made the most of what life gave you.
You want to believe that you're leaving something good behind.
You want it all to have mattered."

Now i'm asking myself...
Did it matter? Does it matter? Will it matter?

labor day

Should i give up or should i just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere?
Or would it be a waste even if i knew my place
Should i leave it there?
Should i give up or should i just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere?


oh schoool.

so college has officially started. its been a really great experience.

i love my school. however.. the only thing i hate.. is the fucking commute..

traffic makes me really upset/mad.


its labor day weekend!!! hope everyone is having fun and being safe.

xoxo
Jenn.